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We all stood in the kitchen, as we do on important occasions in the family, and reflected on the fact that we'd probably never see the caravan again. That's it now, either the site owner can sell it for us or it'll go for scrap, we could've had so many more holidays in it, it's ridiculous. I've still not emailed Jane about it.
Today was rather tedious. I don't mean to complain and I feel awful doing so because I do adore my nans but they do need entertaining and watching because they will do silly things like open the front door when George is there etc. I got nothing done art work wise, and I've still not finished the pasteling. I think I should've just gone back to bed. I feel horrid, and I'm very hungry but I know if I eat I'll not be able to get going on this work again.
It's hard to explain how I feel, I think it's frustration more than sadness. One of those days I suppose, I'll work my way through it.
Song of the day can be Claudia by The View, it's a sweet little song with some quite meaningful lyrics in a way. Quote of the day has to be one of the videos we watched today, it was of Christmas 1994. My nans were watching me open some presents and talking about something I wanted, and one of them says "She said Nanny can I have it? Nanny can I have that please? and I said no, because you have Ed the Duck" I had to laugh. I can't remember Ed the duck, nor can I remember what I wanted. hehe.
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I saw this "Writer's Block" a while ago and meant to answer it because it made me laugh. I think mine would say something along the lines of "Caution- Can be obsessive and rambly (and paranoid, hehe)" or something equally trivial. When I like something I do obsess over it, talk about it and devote myself to it in one way or another. I don't mean when I like things as in, chocolate, for instance. I don't devote myself to chocolate. I mean things like hobbies- horses, model horses etc, and friends and family too. Obsessing over them isn't the right way to describe it, but I do devote myself, and as all of them that read this LJ will know I'm in a habit of over analysing things and always being paranoid that I've upset someone or said something wrong, or that someone may think ill of me. I'm aware this is a bit silly and probably quite irritating for people (the fact that all of my friends at least tolerate me is proof that they're all lovely, hehe)
The rambly is evident in my posts I think. I read things I've typed and find that I've repeated myself all over the place and gone on and on for much longer than was nescassary. I often find myself sending several messages in a row on MSN as I think of things to add to what I've just said. I belive I ramble when I talk sometimes too, and end up talking about things that are totally irrelevant.
I think I was supposed to think of something witty? I could probably wear one of those horsebox stickers actually "Caution horses" I think that sums me up quite well, hehe...
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I don't know what's wrong with me this week (I presume it's caravan related) but I'm being rather over sensitive and silly. I'm going to aim to make myself less sensitive and silly now because it must be annoying, plus the fact it's Christmas which should be a happy time. So if I've seemed weird and silly or stroppy to any of you who read this, I'm sorry, I don't mean to :) *hugs*
I'm going to post some parcels and cards in a moment, I've been meaning to do it for several days so it'll be good to finally get it done. Time has flown rather, since I got back from college, so I think I'll go to B after that and see if it's not too cold for riding :) I've not sat on him since last Tuesday.
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We all finished college early today, it was for an unfortunate reason however- one of the Sociology teachers had passed away and her funeral was this afternoon. I don't think I ever met her myself but some of my friends were taught by her. She wasn't particularly elderly either, it's very sad.
My dad amused me today- he's very quiet and when he says something longer than about ten words it's usually because it's something someone needs to know for a reason. He was telling me something that had happened today (I can't remember what it was) and I couldn't help wondering if there was going to be a point to the story then being surprised when there wasn't, hehe.
I've had the View's album on my computer pretty much all the time for the last two days. It's very good. I'm listening to the Kooks now, they're good too but "She Moves in Her Own Way" makes me sad because it reminds me of Carreg and Wales. It was on the radio all the time while I was there. It's a great song though.
Three days of college left, and about7 days until Christmas. Eeep! I think I've finally got all the cards and gifts done (except for one horse)
I didn't ride B tonight, it was too cold again and windy. I almost lost my hat.
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Had a very shiney nose :)

I spent the whole of lunchtime like that, haha.
Whilst I was uploading photos I thought I'd put this one on here which I took last night to have as a background on my phone, hehe.
The horse on the right was a Birthday gift from two friends,
himmapaan and
georgie659 (I meant to mention him on here before, he's a Breyer Polaris who I'd never have managed to get if it hadn't been for them, so thank you again :D ) and the horse on the left was from my Nan for my Birthday- He's called ATFS Land's End.
It was very cold again today but I suppose that is to be expected as it is Winter. I didn't get chance to ride, it was too late/ cold/ dark :( Hopefully tomorrow, I finish early (but I am going to buy dull cote etc and maybe a new mini resin first)
I've discovered the wonders of eye shadow applicators for putting pastel on model horses! :D They work really well. This means I may actually be able to pastel trad size horses, which is fabulous.
I was hoping to hear from people that they'd received parcels/ cards today but I think the post is a bit busy/ slow at the moment. I do hope they'll arrive in time for Christmas :(
I said my fringe was being weird today. Mum said it needed a trim. I said "Noooooo!" hehe. Mum had put conditioner into the shampoo bottle on Sunday night so my hair went all horrid :S I mean, I'm not a fussy hair person but it made it look very dirty and greasy. I had to wash it again.
The curious mood smiley looks shifty, hehe.
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Even though the questions are almost the same as the other quizzes I've done on here. I'm procrastinating.
Who was your last text from?
Erin
Where was your default picture taken?
In the car on the way to Wales the last time we went.
What's your middle name?
Ruth. I actually wish it was my first name, though I do like Chloe.
What is your current mood?
Ok, if ok can be a mood. Neither here nor there, hehe.
What color shirt are you wearing?
Aubergine and black stripey sweatshirty thing.
What was the last thing you drank?
Tea :)
Do you have a crazy side?
I have a bizarre peculiar side if that's the same thing. I think I'm bizarre and peculiar all over actually, haha.
Something you do a lot?
Say "Very Good" when speaking to people, or so I am told (in 'real life' rather than online) um, I over analyse things a lot, and talk about horses a lot. Hehe.
Angry at anyone?
No. I rarely am.
Do you wanna see somebody right now?
Any random person? Or a certain person? Depends who, if it was someone I knew I wouldn't mind I don't suppose.
Name someone with the same birthday as you?
An amazing sculptor/ painter/ pasteller person I know who's model horsey.
When was the last time you cried?
Last night :(
Who would you do anything for?
My friends and family :)
What do you usually order from starbucks?
I go to Eat ^_^ but if I did go to Starbucks it'd be a tea, or a smoothie, or a pepsi with a cookie- if they do those things there.
What's your biggest secret?
I'm a very un secretive person. If someone else tells me a secret I will never mention it to anyone, but in terms of my own life I'm very open and I think my family and most friends know pretty much everything worth knowing about me (I don't know if this is a good thing, haha)
Favorite movie?
I like horsey ones, and a few Chick Flicky ones like Music and Lyrics but I really want to see the Secret Garden at the moment.
What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Tea! and I'm just going to go and get my box of Minature Heroes
Do you speak any other languages?
Bonjour (a wee bit of French very badly, from my GCSE in which I got a C :O ) and a bit of Welsh, I mean about 10 words.
Whats your favorite smell?
I don't really have one, but there are certain smells that remind me of things. I think I like the smell of hay and horse.
Describe your life in one word, what would it be?
Bizarre
Do you like the rain?
Yus :) Most of the time
What are you thinking about right now?
Sigh
What should you be doing right now?
Artist analaysis for photography
What are you listening to?
The Kooks album but I want to put the View on
What is your natural hair color?
Blonde (or greeny blonde, as mum says)
When was the last time you smiled?
About half an hour ago when I saw Julian Rhind Tutt on Oliver Twist. Even if he isn't a nice character in it.
It's the anniversary of the Prefect trip to London tomorrow! I don't belive a whole year has gone by. We'd have been doing our last Mock this time last year, I think it was Science.
MSN is being silly, and won't let me sign in :( there's a couple of people I need to say things to, so it would decide to be silly now.
I've been making buisness cards for my model horse painting. They won't print properly, which is annoying.
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I only had an hour of college today, afterwards I went to get some money out of the bank, and then went to buy some Dull Cote from Mac and Vanessa (they run the company "Horsing Around" that sells resins etc) and managed to leave with three mini 2nds and a significantly lighter purse, hehe. Bad me. There's a galloping TB (at least I think it's a TB) a standing arab and a lurvley jumper who's going to take about 10 years to prep but I couldn't resist.
Also bought make up applicators and superglue (the make up things are for putting pastel on horses) When we went into the shop dad thought I was looking for primer and showed me where it'd be, but I said "Ah I've not come for that I'm looking for eye make up applicators" he looked a bit confused, so I added "They're not for me, they're for my horses"
Of course, this only made him more confused until I explained. Hehe, horses wearing make up...
Not long until the New Year Fun Live now :D I'm excited.
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Merry Christmas fellow LJ users :)
I've had an amusing Christmas, with the usual family argument that seems compulsory in this house (and is usually my fault for some reason, but it didn't last long this year which was good. I was trying to persuade them to play musical chairs and mum didn't want to so she shouted at me.) lots of food, lots of gifts between us all (many of which were the sort of things my dear Nans want me to like, such as manicure sets and eyeshadow etc) which I pretended I liked because I feel awful not liking things they buy and two hours playing Irish Drums and dancing.
I shall do a proper blog tomorrow :) with videos of singing.
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I'm not sure if I posted this on here. I think I may have done but I just found it whilst looking through my youtube videos and thought I should post it here, even if it has been here before. It's something which I think about everyday so I think it deserves a place on LJ.
The Equilibre Masked Ball. The day after that was the last time I saw the caravan, I left that day thinking I'd go back even if it was just to help empty it but I never did and never will. I think the Masked Ball was a very special fitting end to our visits to the caravan, it's difficult to explain the effect Carreg and Equlibre had on me but I can't watch the video without crying and I think about that place every day.
This doesn't need to be a sad post, however. It can simply be a special one remembering what has been and might never be again (such is the nature of certain events which occur in our lives and leave a lasting impression) I have to try and appreciate the time I had in Wales, and at Carreg without thinking about the fact it's gone. Carreg doesn't have to have gone, I fully intend to visit again as soon as possible.
In other news, I managed to sell a custom the other day. I feel more confident now, that a) I can make myself not got too attatched to the horses so I can sell them and b) I feel my work is good enough (just about, most of the time. I'm not there yet)
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I rode a horse a couple of days ago for someone who was thinking of buying him. It was almost definite that she'd have him but then someone said something to slightly change her mind, and now her mother has also had second thoughts. This is fair enough of course but it's not to do with the horse himself, rather the rest of the situation. If he's not sold to them he'll most likely end up in a riding school which is rather sad. He's a lovely equine, a 16.2 gorgeous Warmblood. He needs a nice loving home where he's pampered and loved, and gets to go for gallops across fields, a riding school isn't the right place for him. Those places very rarely look after horses as they should and the poor equines seem to loose all of their spirit. If he is sold to one I won't know where he is and I'll probably not see him again. It's none of my buisness really but it's going to be like a Mo situation I can see. Where I get attatched to the horse and then it's sold. It's times like this when I wish I could afford to keep another horse.
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As I sit here eating my lunch (the usual, pitta bread with cheese on, crisps, fruit, biscuit, tea) and enjoying a Patrick Wolf album (Wind in the Wires) I begin to ponder my New Years Resoloutions.
Here is the un edited version of them-
1. Look after myself better. Eat more fruit and veg, less crisps and chocolate and excersise more. Also try and sort out my horrid dry sore hands etc.
2. Be more tidy and organised. Keep my bedroom reasonably tidy, organise all of my college work and start to do the work on the night I get it so I just get on with it instead of leaving it until the last minute (try to get it through to myself that Media and English have to be as important as Art and Phorography)
3. Fits in with number two. Keep working hard at college.
4. Learn more Welsh.
5. Be nicer to my nans (I mean, I am nice to them but when they really infuriate me I have been known to snap, which is bad of me because they are lovely generous people)
6. Sell more of my customs, be more confident in my work and also improve them.
7. Try to be more confident and less shy.
8. Improve my riding/ jumping.
9. Make the most of everything.
10. Take every opportunity.
Hopefully 2008 will be a better year than 2007. This year has had some wonderful bits but there was a rather dreary summer and it wasn't the nicest year ever. Unfortunately I remember the bad parts.
Yesterday's situation is looking more promising. Fingers crossed. It's my project to make it work out.
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I went to town to do my photos for my final piece today, and popped into TK Maxx while I was there, tried and failed to get a discount on some damaged Breyers, gave up and left. Heh.
Also went to Paperchase. I've never been before and wow! I love it. I bought three notebooks (one has brown paper in) a pen with horses on and a matching pencil tin. I shall go back next time I have some more money, it's wonderful. I could've spent hours in there (I almost did, hehe) I want to buy some nice envelopes and paper next time along with a lovely big note/ sketch book they had with a linen cover that was like a book. They also do some beautiful tissue and wrapping paper. It's currently about number three in my list of favourite shops :) 
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I see 2007 is enjoying giving me a few more things to be fed up and upset about before it ends. Thank you very much you horrid year. I don't think I remember having a year this unpleasant before. Yes there will be worse times but so much has happened this year and too much of it has been negative. Today has gone rather downhill as it were.
Strangles on the yard, Ben passing away , us having to sell the caravan. It's been a year of things making me sad and unsettled, it's had times when friends have been upset and as I've said before, I'd rather be miserable myself than have a friend be sad. Let's hope 2008 will be better, though I'm not expecting anything wonderful.
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Photo a day for a year? Maybe. I tried it before and it didn't work. I think I'd like to have a something of the day (as well as the song of the day, etc) like a drawing, or a photo. Perhaps a song or song line if it's especially good, interesting or relevant. Quotes are good too. Sometimes it's good to have a quote of the day but sometimes the quotes aren't very good because when one is aiming to have a quote of the day the quality can deteriorate, so I shall have some quotes of some days. I'd like to bring something a little more interesting to my LJ anyway, it's been good to me in the time I've been using it this year (and possibly saved me from going slightly mad at times, haha) so it deserves a few morsels of niceness. More photos for you LJ, and more drawings perhaps. More creativeness in general, poems? Storys? Better spelling, hehe. Different user pics. The dreary sitting looking forwards to the left in a car one is getting a bit tedious now.
I won't stop my silly rambles here I don't think. I need somewhere to put them and here is ideal, where people don't have to read things unless they want to :) I also aim to give my LJ friends more comments when I can and get more involved in online communities I'm in. So there's a New Years Resoloution ramble for you all. hehe.
I'm off to watch the Hootenanny (however you spell it) now. I may post again before bed, I'm in an LJ mood tonight.
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Happy New Year :)
Today was nice. I went to put B out, then went for lunch at Nan's. Spent the afternoon playing the drums again, I have some photos and videos of my playing, I shall have to post them.
For now here are a few photos.
George and I, this can be today's photo of the day. It was taken just after midnight. He does look a little strange though (and I think I do too, hehe)

Bernard and I
Some nice trees against the sky
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So much to say and so little time to update my LJ! :( I will soon, I just need to finish my sketch book.
So the past few days have featured a live show, two wonderful Christmas gifts which I must post about here soon, and riding another horse for someone. I shall update soon.
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Ahh a small moment of LJ writing time :)
The year is going quite well so far *touch wood* I've ridden the horse belonging to the daughter of someone else at the yard a couple of times. He's gorgeous and lovely to ride so I hope that will continue. I spent the last few days of my Christmas holiday revising, doing some art and photography work, and pasteling model horses. I was back at college today but it's not too bad, though I do have an exam on Thursday (but I don't have to go in until one o' clock)
I went to the New Year Fun live show on Saturday. It was a nice change from the normal more serious sorts of shows though I think I do prefer those (though I don't think serious is quite the right word) I spent the day with Georgie and Niroot again, along with Deb (I met quite a few new people too, which is always nice) it's lovely to meet up with people who I don't get chance to meet up with often :) it was a very nice day. I returned home with three new horses, an ISH who was bought from the "For Sale" class (Georgie bought his friend) a gorgeous little CM G3 Highland by Georgie (to match hers and the one that she gave to Niroot, they're the 'Triplet ponies' :D ) and finally a beautiful Aragon resin painted by Sandra as a Christmas gift from Niroot. I adore this horse and had admired him for a long time so it was a wonderful, wonderful surprise to open the parcel and find him inside. (he was beautifully wrapped too) Thank you both once again very much for the Christmas gifts :D
I've finally persuaded Mum and Dad to take me to BVER live :D I wouldn't expect them to take me but Mum had said we could go on the train but then denied all knowlege of having said that. They've decided to drive there now, it's in Essex which is rather far but I'm sure it'll be worth it, I can't wait. there's Thames Valley Live and the forum meet up before that though hopefully :D
I have a desk horse. She's actually meant as a body (another equine given to me by Niroot, thank you :) ) but I've become attatched to her how she is because she's been sitting next to my keyboard. I had one in this mould and colour before who somehow got lost :( so this one is named Lizzie II after the first Lizzie. I may pastel her at sometime but for now she seems to be quite content sitting here keeping me company :)
Europa and Biendecado from HA still haven't arrived. I know they've been posted and are coming 2nd class but I'm worrying slightly. Hopefully they'll arrive tomorrow. I need to order some more Gesso primer for my resins I'e managed to accumulate, eep.
For now, be well- I shall have photos of the new equines and some new doodles soon :)
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Here are my new model horses from the last few days. I know I don't post all the new ones up here but I thought whilst I was uploading their photos and updating here I may as well. A couple of these are very special too.
The glorious Christmas gift horse I mentioned yesterday, from Niroot. He's named Hebraico after the horse at Carreg with the same name, who he looks like.
The lovely little 'Triplet Pony' from Georgie. I'll find the photo of them all together at sometime.
The ISH I bought for myself. I believe it's called 'Cherish' but I shall be thinking of a different name for him. I fancy something Patrick Wolf song related.
and finally a Biendecado resin, sculpted by Lynne Fraley, I adore her work :)
There is also the desk horse, of course. But I don't have a photo of her yet.
I start college later tomorrow and finish earlier, plus I don't have to go in until one on Thursday which is nice except we have an exam but we've been told that we "Can't really revise" due to the nature of the subject. It's English so I'm just reading a bit more than usual.
I've had the Kooks in the CD player for a few days but I've just put Patrick Wolf back in (Wind in the Wires, to be exact) Infact I'm just listening to one of my favourite songs of his 'The Gypsy King' now. Best three albums I own I think, this one is my favourite, I like the obscure spookiness of Lycanthropy and the jollyness of TMP but this one is just a nice bit of both :)
Speaking of music I fancy a bit of ISB this evening, perhaps whilst I tidy my room.
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Let's have another user pic for a change :)
I'm listening to the ISB at the moment. Ah how I wish I'd not missed their last live performance. They're so gloriously bizarre.
I have my first exam tomorrow. English, to be exact. Media and General Studies are next week. We got our Media practise paper back today, I got an E because I (as the comment at the top said) "Started really well" but then rambled off the question. I was supposed to write about how Gender was shown by the way the characters dressed and what they said but I wrote about how the acted and what they did instead. I had about twenty ticks on the first A4 page and two on the other (which was where I'd rambled off the question) Ah well. I learn from this mistake.
I'm currently slightly obsessed with a song by Palladium called The Greatest Dancer, but having not listened to this song (The Iron Stone) by the ISB for a while, I'm listening to it over and over again at the moment. I shall have to find the lyrics and post them. This is the song, I've posted it before but never mind http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5jCw1dblMTk&feature=related
Be well
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Carla sent me this about thoughts and occurences in life last night- I thought it was interesting so I shall post it here :)
Internal factors are reactions that you create inside yourself in response to the world. Even though they happen inside you, it's best to think about them as behaviors because they are actions that you choose. By choosing how to perceive yourself, you can either behave your way to success or behave your way to failure. For example, if you believe you are competent and special, you will live up to that truth. If you believe you are incompetent and worthless, you will live down to that truth.
The powerful internal factors that shape your self-concept are:
Internal Dialogue: This is the continuous conversation that you have with yourself about everything that happens to you. This dialogue is constant, happens in real time (at the same rate at which you would speak the words aloud), and provokes a physiological change (with each thought comes a physical reaction).
Labeling: Humans tend to organize things into categories. We even categorize other humans by labeling them into groups, subgroups, classes and functions. But were you aware that we label ourselves? For better or worse, these labels have a powerful impact on our perception of self because we tend to "live" the categories we've attached to ourselves ("I'm a loser" or "I'm a winner.")
Tapes: These are beliefs that have become so deeply ingrained that they "play" automatically in our heads and influence our behavior without our awareness. Unlike labels ("I never win"), tapes have context: "I won't get the promotion because I never win." Tapes are dangerous and potentially self-defeating because they have the power to set you up for a specific outcome.
Fixed Beliefs / Limiting Beliefs: Fixed beliefs are the beliefs we hold about ourselves, others, and life's circumstances that have been repeated for so long they have become ingrained and are difficult to change. Limiting beliefs are the beliefs we have about ourselves that limit what we reach for and achieve. They also cause us to block any conflicting (positive) information while confirming any new negative information.
I certainly converse wih myself, inside my head, as it were. I also think as though I'm telling a story, or reading a story, at times. I know I categorise myself as being very shy and not especially good at anything so according to this I will spend my life being shy, and failing at things. Heh...
According to Dr. Phil, you can trace who you've become in this life to three types of external factors: 10 defining moments, seven critical choices, and five pivotal people. But first it's important to understand the following terms:
Ten Defining Moments: In every person's life, there have been moments, both positive and negative, that have defined and redefined who you are. Those events entered your consciousness with such power that they changed the very core of who and what you thought you were. A part of you was changed by those events, and caused you to define yourself, to some degree by your experience of that event.
Seven Critical Choices: There are a surprisingly small number of choices that rise to the level of life-changing ones. Critical choices are those that have changed your life, positively or negatively, and are major factors in determining who and what you will become. They are the choices that have affected your life up to today, and have set you on a path.
Five Pivotal People: These are the people who have left indelible impressions on your concept of self, and therefore, the life you live. They may be family members, friends or co-workers, and their influences can be either positive or negative. They are people who can determine whether you live consistently with your authentic self, or instead live a counterfeit life controlled by a fictional self that has crowded out who you really are.
This part of it interested me more.I'm sure Carreg was one of my defining moments, not only was it a fairly spiritual feeling place to be, it also gave me chance to think. It made me more positive about how and who I wanted to be. I didn't actually change on the surface very much I don't think, but I know I have felt different since in a way. This may ave been quite a long defining moment, perhaps beginning in a very small way when I first saw Equilibre and then being made definite when I worked there. It also coincided with me 'growing up' and going from being a rather naive child to someone who had to understand and know more. I think I found myself at Carreg, as ridiculous as it may sound. I think this may have been my only defining moment so far, I may have had another, a lot has happened in the past year and I feel different now, in a good way. Not in a way that has changed anything about me, just how I approach things, but I think that's just life going along as it does.
I do not think I have had a critical choice yet. I feel like I may have had pivotal people but as I apparentely will only have five I'm not sure. On the good side of things (the 'positive' side) I know a lot of people who have changed and influenced my life, whether they be famous, friends, or family, but I'm not sure what a pivotal person would be. I think, and hope most friends I have now, I will know for a long time. To me, all people I am related to, and am friends with, mean an awful lot. I don't change or pretend to be someone else with different people though, I like to think I'm very straightforward in a way (that's not supposed to be a compliment to myself). I have few secrets of my own, but will always keep those that others give to me.
It's all rather complicated. I sense I shall be mulling such things over rather a lot in the next few days.
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